A Disturbing Week

I have been very stressed by my work recently. I have to do a number of negotiations between my bosses and our business partner on certain major project. Too many of them with so much uncertainty as a result of my bosses indecisiveness drove me crazy. I didn't have enough sleep.... dark eye circles are appearing. I was driven to tear at one point when I felt that my bosses were not being fair.

Actually, I wanted to resign a few times some time back in Oct but held back as I didn't have the heart to leave this organization in the lurch. Last night, the same feeling came back. What kept me going was that if the deal didn't fall through it is God has allowed it and I don't have to think too much about it. What will be will be.....



In addition, what someone did recently made me feel very sad and hurt. I just wondered how a person could be so insensitive and mean, especially from someone whom I have cared for before. I felt very angry and felt the urge to show others what kind of person he is. I know I have to leave vengeance to God and not take things int my own hands, yet I still felt the unrest in my heart and it almost turned into hatred.... I didn't feel such strong feeling before.

However, in my Bible reading today (belated one), I came across Proverbs 10:12:

"Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs."

This verse came to me on time (though it was behind my reading schedule). Well God's timing is always perfect, though ours aren't. This verse reminded me that I should let love reigns in my heart and not take revenge. I should give life to someone instead of bringing death by my actions even if I have been hurt. I need God's help to keep my peace, keep my cool, and don't react. I need to let God's love covers the wrongs that were done to me.

Help me, Lord!

Falling In Love

Ah... I am falling in love! Good or bad?

Erm... I think it's bad, 'cos I have fallen in love with my work. I enjoy my work too much that I don't even have much time left for my sleep.

Isn't this the same as when we fall in love with another human being? Yes, indeed, except that works don't hurt us, whereas humans do.

Shouldn't we be passionate about our work? So ironical isn't it?

Perhaps it has to do with my character. I tend to be very engrossed and passionate about the things, or tasks, or people that are under my care. *sigh*

Yet I must learn to love my work less or it will rob me of my time for God and myself, which is very bad. I mustn't make work the idol of my life.

Posting this post is my deliberate effort to break away from my work. :)

My Movie Review: The Secret

Surprisingly, I just came back from watching the movie, "The Secret", with someone. I have not watched any movie for a long time. I don't usually. What motivated me to watch was the piano skills of Jay Chow, the male lead in the show, others commneted. I used to like his songs, which are very soothing though I could hardly know what he is singing. ;)


Review by Daniel Ang

A duet on the piano, a ride on the bicycle, sharing an ice cream, watching the sun set together, these are little pleasures of life that we have seem to have forgotten in this modernized society. It is the kind of love that we all crave for and desire, which humans now are too uncomplicated to think about.

Review by CO's Re

It's in the music that you will find the soul of this movie. It's the music that crafts the emotions of the story - happiness, sadness, yearning, distress and even humour. It's the music that ultimately becomes the salvation of this movie. When the story line falters and when the the depth of the actors were lacking, the music comes through strong and fluid, sweeping you away and allowing you to forgive the shortcomings of Taiwanese pop sensation Jay Chou's directorial debut.

Review by Bee

The storyline was simple but I was enchanted by the piano pieces played by Jay Chow, the male lead (Lun). He is not a great actor and seemed reserved in the whole movie. Some plots are just not logical but the music makes me forget about all those short comings. It made me just want to 'fall in love' with the pianist. It's like a fairy-tale that brings you into a different world.

I don't mind watching it again.

My Afterthoughts:

The movie reminded me of my younger days, where I could easily 'fall in love' with any highly creative persons, such as musicians, artists, singers. Their looks or status aren't important to me. When I was still schooling, one of my ambitions was to be a musician too. I joined the school band and played well. I was made the leader of my instrument group. But my dream shattered one day, when I thought I could never hear anymore as a result of my sickness. My world seemed to collapse then. I even felt that dying was a better option for me than to live in total silence without hearing or making music anymore. Well, I am still alive because of the God I believed in. :)

Perhaps, those feelings may be a kind of 'puppy love', 'infatuation', or pure admiration for talented artists during my teen days. If the artist lose their hands and can't perform anymore, what is there left for me to love? That's not real love. It's a very shallow emotional attachment, a 'falling in love' with their talents, not their personality or character. It's like falling in love with the packaging without loving the content.

This is also true if we were to fall in love with external beauty. However, I discovered that most people don't mind changing boyfriend/girlfriend or even husband/wife once the external charm is gone. That's why there are so many breakups and divorces. Sad....

Important Questions in Life

I found the following banners with very common questions that people asked. The answers to them are simple, yet not many people realize...