A Disturbing Week

I have been very stressed by my work recently. I have to do a number of negotiations between my bosses and our business partner on certain major project. Too many of them with so much uncertainty as a result of my bosses indecisiveness drove me crazy. I didn't have enough sleep.... dark eye circles are appearing. I was driven to tear at one point when I felt that my bosses were not being fair.

Actually, I wanted to resign a few times some time back in Oct but held back as I didn't have the heart to leave this organization in the lurch. Last night, the same feeling came back. What kept me going was that if the deal didn't fall through it is God has allowed it and I don't have to think too much about it. What will be will be.....



In addition, what someone did recently made me feel very sad and hurt. I just wondered how a person could be so insensitive and mean, especially from someone whom I have cared for before. I felt very angry and felt the urge to show others what kind of person he is. I know I have to leave vengeance to God and not take things int my own hands, yet I still felt the unrest in my heart and it almost turned into hatred.... I didn't feel such strong feeling before.

However, in my Bible reading today (belated one), I came across Proverbs 10:12:

"Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs."

This verse came to me on time (though it was behind my reading schedule). Well God's timing is always perfect, though ours aren't. This verse reminded me that I should let love reigns in my heart and not take revenge. I should give life to someone instead of bringing death by my actions even if I have been hurt. I need God's help to keep my peace, keep my cool, and don't react. I need to let God's love covers the wrongs that were done to me.

Help me, Lord!

What is Your Stress Level?

I am extremely stressed by work and feeling I can breakdown anytime... doing five persons' job for the price of one. :(

The following article from Today's Encounter, "Less Stress", has very good advice for me. I need to take heed of those points in red font. I must learn to relax...

Less Stress

"A relaxed attitude lengthens a man's life." (Proverbs 14:30)

I remember reading about a small bridge in a rural area. Its load limit was ten tons. It served its community very well for thirty years until a twelve-ton truck tried to cross it. The added stress was beyond the bridge's capacity--it collapsed under the extra load.

We're all like that. Each of us has a limit as to how much stress we can handle before we break. It is well documented that too much stress is a killer. Thus we need to know just how much we can handle and learn to limit the load we carry.

However, even though my load limit may be "ten or fifteen tons," if I'm not flexible and able to bend with the winds of adversity and learn how to go with the flow of life's circumstances, I may collapse well below my load limit.

Furthermore, as the Bible taught three thousand years ago, we also need to learn how to have a relaxed attitude in the midst of stressful and pressured situations.
While it isn't easy, in a nutshell we need to limit the load we attempt to carry, eat right, exercise regularly, work hard but take time to relax, laugh a lot, cry when we are sad, never bottle up negative emotions but learn to express them in healthy ways. And above all, we need to learn to commit and trust our life to God every day!


"Suggested prayer:
"Dear God, please help me in the midst of my pressured and stressful life to learn how
to limit my load and, above all, trust you in every area of my life. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus' name, amen."